Directionless

Am in full hibernation mode with the rest of the Twilight series on my bookshelf and a full hard drive of series to watch ;) Nothing too exciting going on here. And I am not looking for excitement. I dunno if you do it, but when I'm low emotionally and struggling with life, I tend to shy away from people. I'm in that phase right now. I prefer life when I have things in the future to look forward to. At the moment (due to the current holiday-planning chaos), I don't really know what's out there ... waiting for me in the future. That's a pretty scary place to be. I like to be organised. I like to know what's coming and at the moment I feel like I'm just wasting time as days pass me by. But to compound that feeling, I don't know quite what I should be doing with myself instead. And I'm very ... lethargic isn't the right word, I don't know what is. But all I wanna do is go home and read my book or watch series - I guess mental-escapism is what I'm looking for these days. Sigh. I need some motivation ... I need something to be motivated about, I need a direction.

And I think work has something to do with it. For the last 2 weeks my schedule has been a mess and I haven't really been doing anything specific for any length of time. I'm about to be on a nice long project ... but until that kicks off and I can sink my teeth into it, I'm kinda floating around, directionless, here as well. Sigh.

Sorry, that's probably all a bit much for a Friday morning ;)